But it reminds me of you.



If it didn't, I'd forget you alltogether. I think that would be worse. No matter how much it might hurt to remember, it would hurt even more to forget.
So I'll bear with it. I'll stay sane somehow. Or not. Even if I wind up writhing in terror at the sheer immensity of empty space inside my skull, it will always have been worth it.
Because you know what they say about love and loss.

I think I'll stay inside for now.

Tags: wandering forgotten
Current Location: Home, if you call that a heart
Current Mood: crappy

...He lived for a very long time, and did everything he could to help the people who he met, even if they didn't know him or understand why. Occasionally, he met other people like himself, and some even traveled with him. Sometimes, his travels meant making incredibly hard decisions regarding the lives of other people and himself. Even when he did his best to help as many people as he could, there were some who wound up hurt. Eventually, one of his very closest friends, a fellow on his journey who he loved more than a sister, encountered some trouble, and he could find no way to help her out of it. The distress was so much that he ran away from the challenge and to an empty field. He ran until his muscles would carry him no further, and then he fell to his knees with fatigue and despair. Kneeling on the ground there, staring out at the ironically beautiful world before him and for the first real time in his long life, he wept. At first it was just a single tear, rolling down his face like a crystal orb falling from a high window, bur soon after his mind began to wander, and all of his painful memories found themselves freed from their vaults. The images of countless people flooded his tear-distorted vision until the flowering green fields around him were replaced entirely by the faces of people he had failed to help, of the lives he had failed to save. Overpowered by his anguish at the past and his despair at the present, the man fell to the ground even further and was carried by his emotions into a terrible sleep. There, he dreamt of all the things he would have don, and of all the ways he might have helped, if he had thought quickly enough, or if he'd had the courage sooner. The powerful man was lost to his demons for longer than he could tell, but eventually, they stopped. He did not rest now, but instead these dreadful burdens were replaced by other memories. Memories of the people he did help began to pass before him, and he thought on what might have become of this new flood of people if he had not been there. It even seemed hat he remembered moments of their lives from their own perspectives, moments they could not have had save for him. He thought about the people he would some day come to meet, and what might befall their fortunes without him, and his innermost self told him that many would suffer, even if some might not. The man's heart told him that although some might com to harm because of him, many more would be spared it for the same reason. When the man opened his eyes, he was lying still in the field where he had fallen, but he felt that much time had passed. After barely a moment's thought, he rose from the ground and gathered himself up. He had decided to try to hep his friend, even if the odds seemed insurmountable. He would hep her to escape her peril, and then he would help everyone else to face theirs. His strength renewed with his convictions...

Theoretically, it goes on.

Tags: story tiem
Current Location: Home

Does anyone know of a good place to live that's in or near Longmont (or Boulder) and available within the next few months months (i.e. at least before august)? I don't know what kind of rent I'll be able to pay, but it will almost definitely be under 500. I don't have anyone coming with me, but I wouldn't mind living with someone as a roommate. I'd have a couch to offer, but for now that's all the real furniture I'd be bringing with me.

Alternatively, does anyone need a roommate? I clean up after myself, and such.

I pretty much just need somewhere to go, and I have pretty much no idea where to start.

Happy Birthday,
Happy birthday.
People dying eerywehre
Babies crying; no one cares
But it's your birthday
So happy birthday.

Moreover, miss distant, I am obliged to inform you that I did not purcahse a gift for you this year, seeing as I could think of nothing easily, er, gifted... to one so distant. Leastwise not inexpensively.

Tags: birthday luv
Current Location: Home. The big one.
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: That noise in mine cranium

Quoth the first: "I am a leaf on the wind."

Quoth the second: "You, sir, are a rock."

There followed a fisticuffs, in which both participants were thoroughly walloped. The first was found three weeks later, upside down, buried in a field of carrots. The second was found three weeks later in twelve different places, no two of which within two miles of each other. It is unknown whether the two reconciled.

Tags: a story, gordon freeman, nonsense
Current Location: In classe

I AM SO RICH I AM GIVING YOU HAWAI'I FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY, BUT SINCE I AM NOT ACTUALLY THAT RICH THAT WAS A LIE.

I also don't know how I would ship the island of Hawai'i to California. That would be a hard one. Instead, all I can really do is wish you a happy birthday. And so, without further ado:

Tags: birthday luv, ra, reigningfyre, thrice-blasted
Current Location: The House
Current Mood: Conflicting
Current Music: The pipes of another world

The point of this is that YOU fill it out in comments here and then post it blank in your own journals. Or not.

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?

02) What was your dream growing up?

03) What talent do you wish you had?

04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?

05) Favorite vegetable?

06) What was the last book you read?

07) What zodiac sign are you?

08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.

09) Worst Habit?

10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?

11) What is your favorite sport?

12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?

13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?

14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.

16) Do you have any pets?

17) What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?

18) What was your first impression of me?

19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?

20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?

21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?

22) What color eyes do you have?

23) Ever been arrested?

24) Bottle or can soda?

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?

27) What's your favorite place to hang at?

28) Do you believe in ghosts?

29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?

30) Do you swear a lot?

31) Biggest pet peeve?

32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?

33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?

35) Do you believe in God?

36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

Tags: meme, pop quiz, questionaire, quiz, quizzle, test
Current Location: Work

Quoth the one called Ethiclese:

I try so hard
Not to cry myself to sleep
I can’t help but keep
This secret to myself
I’m so sad
So sorry
So sick of my fears
Of my tears
Of my thrice-blasted ears
That hear every word
Everything everyone says
All the right
All the wrong
So I swear that I’ll try
Once more, not to cry
Myself to sleep
~~~~

Tags: ethiclese, poem, thrice-
Current Location: Work
Current Mood: unspeakable
Current Music: Almost Laryngitis on Pandora

    1. Put Your iTunes/Windows Media Player/ETC on Shuffle.
    2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
    3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
    4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
    5. Put this on your journal.



1. If someone says, "Is this okay?"? November has Come by the Gorrilaz
2.How would you describe yourself? Blank Page by Adore
3.What do you like in a girl/guy? Harder They Come by Oakenfield
4.How do you feel today? Water Baby by Sneaker Pigs
5.What is your life's purpose? Silence by Taiko
6.What is your motto? True to Form by Hybrid
7. What do your friends think of you? White Bird by Vanessa Mae
8. What do you think of your parents? Alexander the Great by Bond
9.What do you think about very often? I Choose Noise-Elite Force Mix by Hybrid
10.What is 2 + 2?  Body Breakdown by Dragonforce
11.What do you think of your best friend? Turbolence by Mhn
12.What do you think of the person you like? Dominious by Pussy Posse
13.What is your life story? Fatal Duel by 石渡太輔
14.What do you want to be when you grow up? Destroy the World-Far Too Loud Remix by Brainkiller
15.What do you think of when you see the person you like? Sound of the Revolution by Lunatic Calm
16.What will you dance to at your wedding? Figure.09 by Linkin Park
17.What will they play at your funeral? Emenius Sleepus by Green Day
18.What is your hobby/interest? Hallelujah by Paramore
19.What is your biggest fear? The Sonic Cathedral by The Dubious Brothers
20.What is your biggest secret? Twilight by UNLKE Feat. 3D
21.What do you think of your friends? Flicks by Frou Frou
22.What will you post this as?  Nightbreed :60 by Hybrid
23.What song would you play during your first time having sex? Ashielf Pi by ES Posthumus

Tags: explosion, moozak, music, splosion
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: See above

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag eight people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Tagged by
[info]estsilvara

And I tag (with apologies to anyone who has already been tagged- just tell me to fuck off): nobody.

1. What are your reasons for having a LJ?
A friend wanted me to have it.

2. What do you do before bedtime?
Nothing in particular. It varies.

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
Happy. I don't know that I've ever thought of it.

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
I really can't say that I have one. Not big, though. This one's nice.

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
Introvert. But it gets complicated.

6. What are your religious beliefs?
Catholic. I bloody hate stereotypes, usually.

7. Do you trust easily?
Sometimes. That all depends on how deep that means, though...

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Cry, I suppose. Try to say something maybe, but I probably couldn't manage it.

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
...

10. What is your best quality?
Up for debate.

11. Is being tagged fun?
Usually.

12. How do you see yourself?
As a thick fog. I don't see me. Not clearly, at least.

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
I'm not sure what to say to that. I'm not sure.

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Wonderful.

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Married and poor. I don't really care about money, but I'd love to love.

16. How many children do you want to have, if any?
I have a big family and I love them to death, and I'd love to have kids, but the getting there I'm not sure about.

17. What's better, to give or to receive?
It all depends. Who's giving to whom? What's being given? Etc.

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
...

19. What would you do if you (or your girlfriend) became pregnant unexpectedly?
That deosn't seem likely to happen to me, due to my beliefs.

20. What is your biggest fear?
Losing a friend...

Tags: quiz, quizzle, random, test, thingy
Current Location: Home, If you call THAT a heart.
Current Mood: blargh
Current Music: Chelsea's